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I proudly accept the title of crazy!

Heyyyyy y’all!

I’ve been so ready to update y’all about all the happenings on this end. But I didn’t know where to start because it’s soooo much. But if I keep pondering on a perfect topic, I’ll never be able to write. So excuse me but I’m just winging it this evening a bit more than usual. LOL

The biggest change is I’m taking a break from work. Too be 100% honest, I was overwhelmed, constantly anxious, no longer happy, constantly in fear of loosing employment and my performance was poor. I was getting trouble at work, having schools constantly call me about my kids tardiness and absences. I was so overwhelmed with working full time, trying to manage all the kids needs, the household, be a wife, show up as a friend, good sibling etc. I was showing up for everyone but myself and still felt guilty for not doing enough. When I tell you my mind starting to tell me the most awful and viscous lies.

I’m sure you’ve heard, “feeling like you’re not good enough”. But when the feeling also becomes a reoccurring thought or voice in your head, there is a pain that becomes so intense, you’d try anything to stop that pain. When that pain becomes intense, it can feel like you’re so low that the only direction you can go is down. It’s like your energy, purpose, enjoyment of life, and soul has been separated from your body. In fact for me the emptiness became physically painful.

Because people don’t want to be deemed crazy they don’t tell the truth. My truth is I wanted the mental pain to stop so bad that I’d rather not be here. I felt my kids would be better of without me and deserved a better mother. I started accusing my husband of the craziest things, even if I didn’t say it out loud. Like moving my keys to make me seem like I’m going crazy. Then I would go into thoughts of feeling like a burden. The cycle is vicious!

But please don’t be ashamed. Many people don’t share because of the shame as been classified as crazy. I’ve been call crazy all my life. And I’m crazy enough to share my testimony while getting help. Help looks different for everyone. Help can be medication, talk therapy, coping skills, or even hospitalization. Getting help doesn’t make you crazy. It helps you take control of your life and get back to living the life you enjoy!

I can go into many details about my recent experiences. But to sum it up; I had days of constant crying, panic attacks, self deletion thoughts/fantasies, depression to the point I would sleep for 12 hours at a time. No bathroom break needed. I’m sharing this because their are people that are ashamed, or embarrassed to say these things. So I’ll be your voice and know you’re not alone. You’re not crazy! Bipolar disorder, depression, schizophrenia and other mental health disorders are chemical abnormalities in the brain. Not a choice or result of poor coping with life.

And another thing. Please stop saying there is nothing you can do for a person in a mental health crisis. Especially a friend or family member. You can admit you don’t know how to respond or what to say but help the person get the help. NAMI had great resources. But don’t hand someone a pamphlet and leave it at that. If a person is in a crisis, do you really think they’ll stop and look at the pamphlet. Help make some calls to those resources. Ask the person in crisis if you would like to stay on the phone for support and just listen in.

If someone does choose to self deletion it never is anyone else’s fault. But you always have people that feel guilty and go over the what if’s when it’s too late.

Please see NAMI contact info below.


Call the NAMI HelpLine at 800-950-6264 or chat with us M-F, 10 a.m. – 10 p.m., ET.


In a crisis, text “NAMI” to 741741 for 24/7, confidential, free crisis counseling.



There is another virus on the loose. Times like this can cause panic, confusion and fear. Some people become indifferent; believing they’re not at risk. There are also people who have no idea what’s going on.

No matter which category applies to you, having knowledge about the coronavirus is beneficial. We are the only ones that can stop the spread of the coronavirus. We first need to know what it is, how it spreads and how we can avoid it!


Please click the link below or copy and paste into browser to get the facts on the coronavirus


DO NOT touch your face. Sneeze/cough in the crease of your elbow, a tissue, paper towel or whatever you need to do to not touch your face. Please don’t touch anyone else’s face. Not only will this prevent the spread of germs; it will also prevent a fight.


DO NOT touch children that are not yours! Sounds likes common sense. However, common sense is not so common. Also the U.S. is a melting pot of all different cultures, beliefs etc. Different cultures do different things. Please find a kind, yet stern way to say do not touch my child. Let’s not toss strollers in 2020 like the good sister Blac Chyna. (But oh I understand)


*Fun fact: When your mom’s “your” becomes yo, hurry up and do what she ask.

One of the biggest (if not the biggest) defenses we have against germs and viruses is hand washing. Wash your hands frequently. Do this anyway, even when there is no outbreak. Because the things we touch daily are filthy.

Hand washing has been proven over and over again to reduce the spread of illness and germs in general. Wash your hands, your kids hands, your spouses hands (lol), your pets paws (just playing, but not at the same time) and remind friends and family to wash their hands.


Since we’re talking about hand washing. I have a quick question. When you’re in a public restroom and someone flush’s the toilet and then walks out of the stall bypasses the sink and just goes on their merry way; do you judge? Do you say hey you forgot to wash your hands? Or do you not even care? Please comment below!


Finally there is a proper way to wash your hands! Soap and water, cover all surfaces of hands including nails and sing the “Happy Birthday song”, twice. A lot of people wonder but are embarrassed to ask who to sang to. According to my research Brittni is the perfect name to use. Just kidding any name will do.

Have you noticed when singing the Birthday song and you get to the name; we say it at the same pace no matter the length of the name? If it’s a short name we pronounce every syllable and if it’s a long name we make it one syllable. I know that’s random but I’ve always found that to be funny.


Any-who, please check out the link below on hand washing and share with your kids, friends, family, co-workers etc.

Thanks for stopping by!


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