How’s your mental health?
So much has happen since I last blogged. However, I couldn’t find a single topic I wanted to discuss. On MLK day I wanted to write about facing fears and the importance of preventative screenings. But there was something blocking my inspiration to write. Also, at this time all three kids were sick. I was attempting to work with sick children at home. We got through it. Then I received an email from my oldest school about a confirmed case of hand, foot and mouth disease.
The kids being sick and out of school made me consider writing about the importance of hand wishing, signs of hand, foot and mouth disease and other common viruses kids love to share. I started to write but again my thoughts were all over the place and the motivation just wasn’t there. In my mind every topic I considered wasn’t good enough. I started to get discouraged.
Although I was having my own internal battle, I managed to keep up with our busy schedule, and added auditions for my kiddos to the agenda. As usual we were constantly on the move.
Last Sunday after my daughter’s audition we had lunch with some friends. She read a text from here phone and said in disbelief “Kobe’s dead”. I didn’t and still don’t know how to process this news.
As I learned the details of his daughter being on the flight, a family, a mother and all 9 persons it crushed me. I couldn’t cry, I could only feel a deep sadness. My chest had a dull pain ache.
A couple days went by and I heard the now widowed father of three; tell the story of how he told his kids that their mother was deceased. He said they screamed and cried as he held them in his arms.That was it for me; I cried like a baby. When I stopped crying I felt as if I had released something. Not just from the Kobe tragedy, but also a release from tension built up over weeks.
We are so use to being on the go and only slowing down when we have a physical illness. However, mental illness can be worse then any common cold. Even when we ignore or are unaware, mental unhealthiness will present itself. Often mental illness leads to a physical illness. Such as a headache or body ache.
Or in my case lack of motivation to do something you typically enjoy and racing thoughts. Mental health symptoms are different for everyone.
Changes in mood, changes in eating habits,changes in sleeping patterns, problems with focus, racing thoughts, behaviors that are unusual for the individuals personality, paranoia, fear etc.
Take time to check in with your emotions. Don’t be ashamed to not be okay! We’ve all been there. Just never give up!